i have noticed today i am a bit better. i havent cried since i woke up. and as pathetic as that sounds it is an improvement.

apparently tomorrow i am going to hot damn with veronica, manny and tuohy so that should be good. veronica sent me a text that said 'i wish i could turn all of your tears into stars that could brighen your day' which was possibly the loveliest cutest thing anyones ever said to me. i love her just like a lot. haha.

and tomorrow Danny is coming over to make cookies with me, bless his soul :P all the way from god only knows where. he doesnt yet know i need him to drive me to work either... haha hopefully he doesnt mind?

hiba at work asked me into a room to talk cuz you know, i broke down crying in front of everyone at work. and she was so sweet. and then we both started crying ? my bayed. but she was amazing

EVERYONES been amazing. i think the people in my life this time are a much stronger team ? i dont know. i just feel like this time im not alone. and hopefully this time i wont do all the crap i did last time and fuck everyones lives up as well as my own?

one can only hope.